Which Half Do I Side With?

I can’t believe how wrapped up you can get into something that you didn’t ask for. It’s so crazy how you can so willing let go of something, you want so much more once it’s willing to let go of you. It’s so hard to let go of something you want so bad, even though you know it’s not what you need. Here I am contradicting myself. When half of you wants something, and the other half of you doesn’t which half do you side with?

People think that if a person loves them enough they will change their ways, and it may be true but that person needs not to change for you but for themselves. And if they do not want to make that change then you need to find that person who will. I think that your soul mate should be perfect to you; as they are. They should not need to change, if they are meant to be with you then you should love them as they are. I’m so confused.

I guess I need time to myself and time to find myself, I need to be a stronger person when it comes to what I need. I need to stand my ground. You only live once, why not give yourself the best you deserve. There’s no point in settling I just wish it wasn’t so hard to find the person I’m meant to be with. It’s like I’m lost in a maze with my soul mate waiting at the end, and I keep taking the wrong turns. I keep second guessing myself, but when you guess too many times you forget what your first choice was. Does that make sesnse? I just need to take a big step back, If I look at the big picture that will probably help me deal with all of these thoughts.